Music:U2 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm looking For
I'm just now starting to get over it enogh to realize how far out I was for a while. The funny thing is I realize now how much of it is not really a lakc of faci;lities but simply a relaxing of willpower. It;s not that I couldn't' control myself, it's that I finally allowed the willpoer t o slip enough where I didn't have to contorl myself.
Its' sort of liberating but alsto a bit scary. I remember whyu I've ben avoiding tempttion rather that allowing it. When you take one strept it's hard not iot takje a 2nd and a 3rd and a 4tth.... ypou get sucked in and then you can't stop. I prefereed never to get sucked in.