July 24th, 2001


Holy shit

Tonight was the most productive night I've had in... potentially months, actually. I had energy. Out of nowhere.

So I made a quick dinner of seafood-flavored ramen with spinach added in when I got home, and ate it down and put the clean dishes away, and then picked up the baby. That was clue number one.

I picked up the baby, and took him for a walk. And walked, and walked. We spent around 30 or 45 minutes in total walking around, and the last 3 or 4 blocks I carried him home, singing quietly to him while he fell asleep - almost - on my shoulder. He woke up as we got back to our building but still, he was on the verge of it.

So we got upstairs and I played with the baby for a while, then fed him a snack (he wasn't hungry enough for a full dinner) and then played with him some more. After a while, we went into his bedroom and played quietly while I watched tv. UPN, Moesha and the Hughleys. Never seen either before. They actually weren't nearly as horrible as I was expecting. They weren't exactly Shakespearean but they were enjoyable enough, which did surprise me.

After that I put the baby to bed, and then came into my room and checked email, LJ, etc. Then I did the finances, then left to do the dishes. After I did the dishes, I realized I still had energy for some reason. This is unusual.

Ok, fine. So I figured I'd test it out. I swept up the kitchen and living room. Still had energy. Took out the trash. Then cleaned the counters. Then cleaned the stove. Then the microwave. Then I put away the groceries and cleaned up the bags. Took out more trash. Then I went to the bathroom, realized I still had energy, and so put away the clean laundry.

Then, finally, I felt tired. So now I'm relaxing, feeling a bit hungry, and thinking I might snack... and maybe even clean some more after. Freaky.

I haven't gotten this much cleaning done in one night in months, literally. I've been so tired just doing the dishes would leave me needing to sit for a little while. It's a bit freaky, really. I'm not complaining. :) If I'm not too hungry to sleep, I will. If I am, I'll snack, then sleep.
  • Current Music
    Depeche Mode - Halo

Woooo cool.

Electronic Arts has an interesting subscription based model. The impressive thing is they've found a way to let you play games - real games - in a browser window. Very impressive. I just played a couple of rounds of Need for Speed and it was nearly identical to the version you get on a cd - except in a browser window instead of full screen. Way cool.

And let me say, I love NFS. :) Such an awesome series. I loved the original Test Drive game on my Amiga too. Yum yum, arcade style street racing rocks. Loved Gran Turismo too.

Anyways... for $10 a month you can get access to the various games they have there, including Majestic - which looks awesome, in a very freaky way. http://www.majesticgame.com/ for more info.


How odd. I guess my problems have mainly been caused by stress. Having a weekend where I did nothing but veg out and play with the baby really helped I guess.

Except it's not -just- stress. Something else too, as I've had some quite stressful days/times recently. Yesterday was fairly stressful. The weekend had a very stressful few hours. Etc. Yet I feel like I have energy again.

Maybe it's my outlook on things? Maybe it's that I started taking vitamins again a few days ago? Maybe I was depressed and got over it?

I dunno. I'm glad it's fading (not gone yet, mind you) but I really wish I knew WHY - so I could avoid making the same mistakes in the future. Frustrating.

Now I'm teaching myself postgres and sql and writing a perl script that will use a db to store its data. Can you believe in all this time it's the first time I've done this? Can you believe I actually have the drive to do this?

This is awesome. :) (No, not learning this stuff, although that's definitely good. What's awesome is that I have the drive to do it for a change. Until recently I was slugging along and accomplishing nothing, or at least feeling no sense of accomplishment for what I did.)


...tired, so tired. Different though - tonight it's sleepy tired, not drained of spirit tired. Good tired. Going to bed early tonight. G'nite.
  • Current Music
    Aerosmith - Amazing