May 6th, 2001


Good Lord...

3 am, and I've been up chatting with friends and surfing the web aimlessly all night. Ye gods.

Still have a sore throat. My mother thinks it might be allergies. She might be right. I'm not feeling sick consistently enough for it to be an average every day sickness, but it just keeps coming back.... very frustrating... I've had this recurring sore throat, occasional headaches, body aches, general run down feeling, for 2 or 3 weeks now. Geh... :/

Insomnia too, which of course means I've been sleep-deprived. Yay.

Hrmm. Can't motivate myself to do anything recently... the past 2 or 3 days I've been totally slacking off. Sigh. Admittedly I spent a decent amount of time with the baby today, but I still could have accomplished... something...

Update: Ok, now it's 4:15 and I'm still chatting with dormando... bad bad me... hehe...
  • Current Music
    Modest Mouse - Dark Center Of The Universe

Oh yeah....

I forgot to mention it earlier, so I'll say it now: firelegend kicks ass. ;)
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    U2 - Where The Streets Have No Name

Dude! Rock the Vote!

Or not. I know, I'm usually the last person encouraging people to get out there and vote, but this is more of a travesty than GW making it into office.

Go here: and cast a write-in vote for LJ in the Community/Services/Personal Site categories (pick one, or all three, or whatever, I dunno... all three sounds good to me...). It takes maybe 5 or 10 minutes tops, and that's including registration.

It's good for your health. It'll make you more attractive. It'll make you rich and powerful. And, best of all, it's free.

Have a link, on me:
  • Current Music
    U2 - In God's Country


Just recently was finally assigned to a team for .

I'm... uh... underwhelmed to say the least. The actual site and its interface seems lame at best. It doesn't seem to get used much, which is unfortunate, as I think it has a lot of potential. There are maybe 100 schools represented in total - and while I'm sure some tech reps represent more than one school, probably some entire districts, I KNOW there must be hundreds or thousands of schools without access to this. I've read a lot of complaints on the message board about how frustrating it is trying to help through this program, and I'm not encouraged. Sigh.

Maybe they should run a private LJ. :)


It just really bothers me. What's the point of my volunteering (incidentally I signed up for this MONTHS ago and they just now placed me..!!!) my time and efforts if they're just going to waste? It seems stupid. Someone posted a question on Friday and my response today was the first response. Why does this bother me? There are probably hundreds or thousands of volunteers (although I'm sure most still haven't been set up yet :P ) and not one could bother to respond in 2 days. This is not a vibrant and thriving program!

I think maybe the first thing we should do is to re-evaluate the entire program and rebuild it from scratch. Right now the lame web-site and slow as hell administration is only getting in the way of helping. Sigh.
  • Current Music
    Crazytown - Butterfly

Oh God...

My head is pounding... I thought maybe it was from the fact that I hadn't had any real caffeine for 2 days, so I had a glass of coke. No go... or maybe it just wasn't enough. All I know is my head is killing me and it's making everything else rather difficult. Feels reminiscent of the times I've gone through caffeine withdrawal (yeah, I'm a pathetic geek sometimes...) but unlike those times caffeine didn't fix it.

Then again, considering the timing, I think it's most likely just stress. A lot of stress. Today's been a very stressful day, unfortunately. Very, very stressful. Sigh.

On the upside, I've gotten some laundry done and did a little cleaning. By gritting my teeth a bit I can get through the pain and keep going, but it's not pleasant. The entire worn-down feeling doesn't help either. Bah, being sick - for whatever reason - really sucks. Thank god my sore throat is gone, if I had that too I'd really be whiny.

Ow ow ow... pain... *whine*

The baby's got diarhea too, so he's not in a good mood. Hehe, we're a pair of grumpy bitches today. Woo woo. At least he can't say he isn't being taken care of, I must've changed his diaper a dozen times already trying to minimize his discomfort and prevent a serious case of diaper rash. Diarhea really sucks. Sometimes I wish babies were more like computers, then I could either patch him or write a script to watch him and make periodic adjustments when he has diarhea or constipation. Hehe. Hmmm. I think I'd put a redirect from his ass to /dev/null, too.
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    Pink Floyd - Speak To Me - Breathe In The Air

On parenting.

I've been a parent for a little while now - say, 5 years ("and a half!" my older son would exclaim if he were reading this), and I've learned at least one or two things about being a parent in that time. So what I want to know is - why have so few other people?

It seems to be so many parents in america have no idea of what raising a child is about. Too many of them seem to fall into one of the two extremes, and neither seems all that appropriate to me.

Let me preface any further discussion by saying I tend to be a strict father. I don't think I'm unreasonable, but I do tend to err on the side of more strict rather than more lenient. Having said that, let's continue.

There seem to me to be two basic camps on parenting, or at least on bad parenting (of which so many people seem to be guilty - well, those with children, anyway). You have, on one side, the 'little monster' camp. They are of the firm belief that children are monsters, and their job as a parent is merely to act as their shepherd. They feed them, they keep them moving in the right direction, more or less, and they keep them from getting eaten by wolves. If they've accomplished that, they've done their jobs. Their children run around, screaming and hollering, raising holy hell all over the place, and they shrug. "They're children. They're like that." No, no, I'm sorry - they're not like that. Children have individual personalities, but they're individual personalities shaped quite dramatically by how you raise them. If you treat them like monsters, they will learn that they are monsters, and they will act like monsters. If you expect nothing good from them, nothing good is exactly what you'll get.

The flip side of the coin harbors a collection of parents that treat their children much like rich old ladies treat their pets. Their adorable little foo-foo is prized so long as it's quiet and trots along behind them without drawing any extra attention to itself, except when they feel like showing them off. These parents expect 100% obedience and abject terror when that fails. Their treatment of their children seems to be halfway between military cadets ("ABOOOOUT FACE! ATTENNNNNNSHUN! SMILE FOR THE CAMERA!") and utter neglect. I think they'd forget about them if the children would let them. And heaven forbid their children actually show some human emotions or some childlike glee. "10 demerits for smiling! No dinner for a week!" Their children DO reflect on them, but I'd like to think a child's existence is not defined purely on how they make their parents appear. They aren't trophies, they're little human beings, who have fears and hopes and get excited and dejected and everything else you can imagine. They're people, just short. Treat them like it.

Why is it so hard to find a reasonable balance? I expect my son to be polite and respectful and kind, both in public and in private, but I realize he's still a child and can't be expected to be perfect. I also don't let him run around like a howling, rabid banshee either. It seems perfectly straightforward to me - expect your children to be good, even demand that they be good, and for the most part... they will. Reward them when they're good! Punish them when they're bad. Pay attention to them regardless. Kids need both discipline and love, and if you give them both in reasonable amounts they seem to generally respond pretty well.


Anyway, that's the end of my rant on parenting. Bleh. I could probably continue, but I have a headache so I'll save us all the pain of listening to me continue. ;)
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    Pink Floyd - The Thin Ice

A Suggestion

As LJ continues to grow, I've found that the (few) existing filters just aren't cutting it. I'd like to have more privacy options, to have more ways of filtering what I view, what I post, etc.

I've been trying to think of an intelligent way to handle it that wouldn't be too confusing, or too much work. Masking off things by groups, creating little permissions schemes, all sorts of things.

Finally, it hit me.

What's the solution? An idiot filter. I realized the biggest single problem I have is that there are so many idiots around. I don't want to read their posts. I don't want to read their comments. I don't even want to know they exist. So, turn on your idiot filter, set a sensitivity level (genius, moderately intelligent, so-so, slow, retard, brick, religious right), and you're set!

God I'm good.
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    Crooked Fingers - A Little Bleeding