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Trick or treat


While working on the disaster relief effort I saw enough food and liquid to feed an army. Literally. A large one. Thousands and thousands of pounds of water, drinks, food, snacks, etc.

That's probably enough food to feed all of the homeless people in the city for weeks. It was collected in a few days at most.

Isn't it funny how when there's a huge tragedy like we had that suddenly people are pouring out generosity from every pore but there are people starving to death in those same streets every day and people don't even blink?

It took a tragedy to open our eyes. What I want to know is how long they'll stay open, how long we'll continue to show this generosity before we forget and go back to our careless existences.

Sort of depressing when you think of it that way. Still, at least it's shown just how good people can be when inspired. I just wish it didn't take 5000 lives to inspire people to such levels. :/

It really upsets me, not because I expected better of others, but because I expected better of myself. Sure, I had put in some volunteer time, and I had spent dozens of hours trying to find a way to contribute my skills online to various efforts, but in the end I put in more work in the past week practically than I have in my entire life until now. The hours might not add up, but the effort I put in this past week easily outstraps any volunteer work I've ever done. That's horrible. I'm ashamed. It's bad enough that it took 5000 lives lost to move other people, but it took 5000 lives lost to move ME.

I once thought to myself that the physical effort I put in didn't matter. After all, my skills are worth $100 an hour or more, it seemed like putting in a few hours of work every month online should make up for any time in a soup kitchen or whatever that I missed out on, right? No, wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I'm realizing that now. What really matters in the end, I think, is the effort you put in. I was taking the easy way out by doing that. A few hours of bullshit tech work in a month don't really do much. It might sometimes help but a lot of the time it doesn't really accomplish all that much in the end. A day or two in a soup kitchen, or a shelter, or working disaster relief has the potential to do so much more. You don't just set up a server, you change peoples lives. You make an impact, you make a difference, you make the world a better place than it was, and you show those around you what a difference it can make. Maybe 99 people won't see, but if just one does, then you've done some good.

So why did it take 5000 deaths to make me see?

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